Youth Author Sushvika Yepuri shines on National Youth Conclave
Sushvika Yepuri, is a college student, born and brought up in Hyderabad, India. She has harboured a deep love and strong passion for writing anthologies at the age of 11. Delving into various forms of creative expression like poems and songwriting, alongside her writing endeavours,Sushvika finds solace in the world of books, immersing herself in the realm of literature and music,with a fervent desire to make a difference, Sushvika tries to help and empower woman by giving them a voice through her work
Unrequited love
camouflaged as friendship
What’s done is done?
What’s done is never done
It remains within me
Tormenting me
A story I tell myself
But truly deep down
We know that we are
Too damaged to remain together
Everybody talks about the
Pain caused when
Someone you love
Departs from your love
A deep heavy departure indeed
But there are very few who
Talk about the pain caused
When someone you love departs
From your companionship
To tear down the dynasty
Of a friendship built
You lost me
But why does it feel
Like I lost you?
As I write about you losing me
Why does it feel like
I’m writing about me losing you ?
But then I realize
It is just my inner child
Trying to scrape up
Whatever goodness left in me
Because the bitter sweet nightshade is
That when you lose a companion
Because of their betrayal
That is when you truly feel
Like an adult for the first time
And in the time of echo
You realize
It’s not you losing them
It’s them losing you
True friendships are built
On earthquake easy dynasties
The dynasty that
left me shattered
And swallowed me
Into a whole madness of an ocean
But now there is so much
Darkness in me and around me
That I prefer not to involve
Anyone anymore
As the last occupant
In my heart of a friendship
Left it broken
But no matter what
I don’t want to become like the person
Who conjured up this type of madness
In the play
Only to be passed down to me
I may never trust in true friendship again
But one thing I know
I will never become the
Person who betrayed me
Because when I look to the past
I’ve forgiven you
I’ve stood by you
I’ve shown you my mercy
I’ve forsaken everything
In the name of your ridiculous redemption
Only to be
Triumphantly
Fallen into the
Pit of betrayal
I welcomed you into my house, my heart
Giving you one of my most precious acacia roses
I trusted you with my home
my kingdom of A garden
I gave you my precious acacia roses
Whenever I saw you
But you Being you
You buried me alive under a
Thousands of wolfsbanes
Containing casket
You rewarded me with the poison
I grow in my garden
You turned me into this
Black darkness
A darkness which consumed me whole
A light which beheaded me
A shadow which over took me
Creating all together
A different monster
Who likes cacoethes
To those who would think
To betray me again
Unrequited friendships are adoxography
Yet I don’t know
if they are beautiful
but it surely is a
devastating down deep void
I will never forget the
Feeling of the
catchlight in my eyes
when you photographed me
But I will always remember
The catchlight in my eyes
When I saw the
Photography of your betrayal
Which I think is
By far the best I’ve seen
Because that’s when you learn
the reality of friendships
That’s when you start
putting yourself first
That’s when you get the sense
of the real world
That’s when your mindset
becomes strong
A heartbreak from your lover
Will eventually heal you
But a heartbreak from your companion
Will eventually make you stronger
Making you the
worst better version
of yourself
Is it so wrong of me
To want every deadly emotion in a friendship
Guess only I was so worried
Of the word thanatophobia
Of us
Of our friendship
Of us being dead
And you were not
The love, the jealousy, the selfishness
The pain, the anxiety
But not towards me but for me
But towards others who try to take
Me away from you
Because a true friendship
Isn’t one
If you are not constantly
Worried about your friend
The jealousy that stems
When she brings out a new friend
The pain that grows when ‘
She talks to any other person but you
The anxiety that spreads
When she goes out with a friend
That isn’t you
Where has true friendship gone?
But in the end
You were jealous
You were selfish
But not for me
Not in the way I expected
But towards me
Because the truth Is
I want my true companion
To express and feel every emotion
For me
Even the ugly ones
Because that’s what strengthens your bond
I thought at least you
Of all people
Would be selcouth
But you made us all too familiar
All too similar
All too often
But you have made us
Immortalized forever
In the smoke broken dynasties
Of some unrequited love
Forever in the betrayal of your
Sins in my shadow
Forever in dark tinted soul drawings
That are broken
We are broken acacia
We are shattered glasses
We are disintegrated Redamancy
This rage, This wrath, This anger
Turned into something that
I am grateful for
Because of you
I am the woman that I am today
That I will not be as strong as
I am now
If you didn’t betray me
If you didn’t exile me
If you didn’t shun me
But I’m glad you did
I’m glad you beheaded our friendship
With your betrayal
I’m glad you exiled our companionship
With the people that are my enemies
I’m glad you used the guillotine
On our trust
With the people
Who were plotting my destruction
My viridity is long dead
But I’m glad it did
I get that we play
A different role in everyone’s story
A hero, A villain,
The lesser, The greater
The weaker, The stronger
The naive, The intelligent
But how am I the villain
Every single time?
How am I the villain
In every female friendships?
But then I realise
My darkness didn’t make me a villain
But the last inkling of
goodness in me
Made me a villain
I realize
I cared too much
And now I’m the villain
But for all the things depicted and
Marked down in the name of
Unrequited love
There are so few
On the pain of caring too much
That made them a villain
